Briefly discuss an aspect of my subject that I do not discuss online, prefer to deal with the violence aspect as the other aspect I find too emotionally unsettling.
When I started studying seriously the subject I looked at it was split into two separate parts. A very individual Scottish philosopher who looked at feral children and sought to ask the world if such creatures were human and could be educated? The other was the wild man, one researcher on the same topic but a bit further down the road, once said to me, you have to walk down some dark paths with this subject. I knew the British legend well by this point and also had a growing understanding of related creatures in Irish culture and in later folklore. I did not really understand what she meant at that point.
The french feral creature Lord Monboddo studied was treated in some descriptions in poetry as an object of sexual fetish.
I never thought when I first started looking at the sexual aspects of the motifs that they had any bearing on my own life and childhood.
Part of what I study is how abused children become entangled in a wider public imagination, how they become objects of fetish, with no voice of their own. I want to study this and present a rational balanced argument based on solid historical evidence. Demonstrating how we are culturally disposed to treating this subject. This is not an attack on religion, science or any other particular group but a discussion of cultural attitudes and the stories told about such things, which have a long cultural history.
I don’t want to become entangled in my own text I can keep a distance from my own emotions and childhood experience. I want to keep my private life private. I dont want to have to discuss the emotional basis for the aspect of my study that concerns the abuse of children and the narrative’s that surround them.
I can put up with the personal pain involved in this subject, I want to see these subjects understood fully, I don’t want others to have lived with the sorrow and the inability to speak about such things or become some warped fantasy in the mind of others.
Big data I use is limited and of recent vintage. It comes from chewing through public texts, literature, in an effort to gauge wider emotional attitudes. I don’t engage in contemporary field work as I feel ethnology can be somewhat intrusive in regard to people’s personal beliefs unless it’s handled with care and often due to the pressure of coming up with academic results, that’s sometimes not the case. I study marginal groups historically instead.
Elite groups who are comfortable and not perceived as victims can also fall into that grouping, businessmen and Lawyers are often the subject of much contempt as are ethnic groups perceived to be well off and comfortable like the Jewish community.
Data laws in Europe are being re-drawn at the moment. One of the models for future legislation is Germany. German people have a history here reflected in the legal framework. A country that suffered the persecution and monitoring of the far right and also with Stassi in East Germany the far left. The law and Lawyers despite public perceptions can and odes work sometimes in the public interest and indeed the conclusion of my own study is that the lives of the population have improved slowly and sporadically through time.
Protection from the intrusion of extremists in our lives is an important and pressing issue. But I also get strangely emotive when folks do things like attempting to accesses bank details stored on my computer (a recent first), the online safety of my children etc.
I don’t want to have to recount anymore of this in public. Subject I have only discussed three times to anyone, once early on this evening. I do have some understanding, now why such things are never spoken, why people have to go through life silent, unable to confront even privately such things. I turned my head to studying such things without even fully admiting why. Having to do that at the moment.